The truth is in the middle.

I was living in one place, the wages were low, the jobs were scarce, and then a girl got murdered at a food joint and she had just transferred from my ex husbands location of work. If she hadn't transferred to the other location, he could have been the other victim.

Weekly shootings in town were bothering me. 

I moved away.

I moved to a small republicanish town.

They all loved Trump.

So I didn't really make friends for 7 years.

I moved just before the COVID.

It feels like I was in the COVID for like 5 years.

I kind of was.

I am still recovering.

It reminds me of my disabled veteran ex boyfriend.

He was much more damaged before the war than he had become while he was there.

I was freaked out by having friends before I left town.

It was a long journey before I would go back.

A rather lonely one.

I have....exes.

I wished on a star for 10 years for a girlfriend. 

Now I don't have a thing for redheads anymore.

Having a girlfriend would be nice.

But scary.

I don't know what it is about being with a girl that hits different. 

They can wreck you.

But it turns out it's not just women.

He is the first dude to really get to me.

He is really pretty. And squishy.

It's not a secret that I am obsessed with beards. 

At the end he would literally like rub it on me, and that's the thing, did he like it or did he just do it cuz he knew I liked it? 

The way it seems, I would not put it past him to be pondering if he even wanted to be there while he was doing that, and here I am just enjoying it.

Oof.

I also know how to distract people like that.

But you only use tactics like that on people who you can't trust who are a threat.

Why do I get with the people pleasers and then just enjoy it?

How do I let them trick me like that?

It was twice.

Only hang with people whose moms aren't awful.

Or like make sure they have done the work.

Apparently it's easy to pretend you are getting better at least for a while. 

We had the same color hair and eyes.

My ex boyfriend and ex gf both had hazel eyes.

He had really pretty eyes. He was pretty.

I very rarely get into dudes like that.

I am getting later into my life though.

And my hormones do be raging.

I like saying "be" and "being" where it doesn't belong

People where I was did that and I really am into being in general like heidegger 

Saying am is okay

Meh

Like I am that I am

Like God saying "I basically am just being"

Indeed

Do. Do be do.

I do. 

I do shit

Indeed. I do do shit.

So, anyways.

The Republicans might be homophobic.

That means they are gay though.

Scientific studies show that homophobia and gayness are tightly linked.

So they should stop fighting with the LGBT community.

Just stop fighting your gay urges and bang me.

Except they never will.

They would rather marry God and ****** little boys.

The Democrats will just start spewing hate talk at you as soon as you say something that sounds remotely Republican to them.

The media shows these two sides.

It shows that there's scary ppl ready to get you if you don't comply.

But most of reality is just like in the middle. 

Facebook is a fear mongering platform.

I offer you something else to look at.

The news is fake.

Memes are cool.

Jesus is cool.

He liked everyone.

EVERYONE.

k maybe I am also angry but I think we are all more similar than different and should focus on that and still be nice to each other.

uh...just keep swimming.